Four times losing weight and gaining back MORE is what had landed me in the “morbidly obese” category in the first place. So I determined not to EVER do that to myself again. I mean, Geeeez, my ass barely fit in the seat of the Mind Eraser roller coaster at Six Flags (Elitch’s) as it was!!! I couldn’t afford another “diet”. Not ever. So I gave up on trying to lose weight and lower my cholesterol. But I wasn’t happy about it.
And then I realized that I was about to turn 35. Wait a minute. I am not done living! I am not ready to start the downhill slide into old age and infirmity. I can still out-ski my skinny friends! I still cut quite a swath blazing down the highway in black leather on my big bad motorcycle! I don’t look that bad …. Do I?
I really started looking. And I soon realized that Yes, I looked that bad. And all this soul searching did was depress me. Because the basic facts hadn’t changed. I didn’t think I could live on 1200 calories a day for the rest of my life. Not without ending up divorced and friendless. And what good would that do?
One day soon after that low point my husband came home and changed my life. Just because he doesn’t like to read ~ and he had decided he wanted to lose some weight. He had run into a friend who had lost 45 pounds on the Atkins diet. “But that’s not supposed to be safe” I protested. “How do you know?” he asked. I thought about it and realized that I really didn’t know enough about it to have an opinion. So I agreed to purchase and read the book on his behalf. After all, I loved to read, and if he was going on a diet, I, as the cook, would have to be briefed.
By the time I finished the first chapter, I was in tears. Dr. Atkins was describing ME. What’s more, he swore there was an easy, healthy way to regain the old me. I finished the book, and I read it again. A few days later, three days before my 35th birthday, I started a low carb diet combining principles from Atkins and Protein Power.
Eight weeks into this diet I had my cholesterol tested. It was within “norms” already! This is not a diet. This is a life change that this yeast bread baker and worshiper has found incredibly easy to commit to. Once you give up refined carbohydrates, and find a hidden well of energy you NEVER knew existed (even as a child) once you witness your own always-lackluster and weak hair and nails begin to grow out luxuriously strong and healthy, once you begin exercising not out of any sense of obligation or guilt but out of sheer enthusiasm for how good you feel, why, you find that sugar and flour do not tempt you. Not that I will never eat any again. Don’t misunderstand me. It is just that I will never blindly eat either one again. I am now aware of the deadly chain reaction they cause inside my incredibly efficient body. And I am losing weight that I will NEVER gain back. And as God is my witness, I WILL NEVER BE HUNGRY AGAIN. I have never once been hungry since I went lowcarb. Not once. This is nothing like every other time I tried to do the right thing for myself and my body. This is different. It is unthinkable to me to ever go back to the way I was. I have no doubt in my mind whatsoever that I WILL reach a “normal” weight. It may take a while, but it will happen. It is a side effect of my new way of life, you see. An unavoidable, very pleasant side effect!